Today story will be in special edition.
This story start with a boy who has his birthday today. Yes, it is me today - 20/6/11. And I am going To do some little crazy thing in my birthday. Guess what? I am going to confess to my 6 years in love girl. This is not a joke. And i am going to start this plan soon.
I went to her house as usual.
"happy birthday.:)" She know that my birthday today.
"thank you." i can't controlling my feeling, nervous.
"haha why you look so nervous today? Anyway, would you let me know how are you going to celebrate our birthday?"
"hmm.... I want.....errrr.... I want....." shit, why do i nervous?
"lol. What you want, birthday boy?" she tried to see through my eye to guess what I want.
"errr... I want..... Watching movie with you!" Haiz, useless of me....
"oh okay, so what you want to watch?" she smiled at me, my cute answer perhaps.
"you decide" my brain need to cool down.
"let's watch Tron and Hulk 2"
"okay" I replied.
Movie-ing....(After 4 hours)
"You sure you want to celebrate your birthday in such a way?" she curious on my way.
"erm.... Ya...." again, my nervousness beat me down.
"hmm... I understand that you want to keep your birthday as less people know as possible." she knew that in advanced.
"anyway, happy birthday. Wish you have a nice day" she smiled, again.
I scared. And I took the bike and leaving. I didn't go back to home straight away. I personally monologue to myself.
"why are you so coward? Aren't you wish to let her know? Isn't it your target of coming back to Malaysia? You this coward! If you don't do it, you will regret forever!"
At the sparkling light moment, I decided to go back to her house. I called her out. And she went out to meet me.
"lol anything you want to talk to me?" she even more curious.
"I...i..." I can't speak out a word!
"lol what happen to you today? So weird la you."
"I love you! I want you to be my girl friend! Is it okay?" I said it very very softly.
But she heard it.
"err... You so funny la today"
"no, I am serious"
Her face is red, like an apple.
"errr... You are good actually. But I have not prepared to this kind of feeling. I need to focus on my study since I am on the borderline of my result." she slowly gave the reason.
"so, hopefully you could considerate my reason."
My heart Is broken. And the heart is bleeding. Now I only realize the bleed is sour as it flowed out from my heart to my throat. I was defeated.
"haha. Okay, forgot what I have said to you, just become normal. Today nothing happen, right?" I acted really like coward dog!
"yea, you are right. And I will forgot hat we said just now." she reiterated it.
"so we are still friend?" I carefully asked.
"yes, we are" she forcefully smiled at me.
Yes, finally, I got my answer for the question that has been sealed in my heart for six years. Although it is not my favorite answer, it still solved my curiousity.
And now it is 20/6/12, which is one year after his incident. I really can't imagine why time could really flies even don't have wing? ( sorry for my cold joke). Anyhow, life must go on. She is having final exam in this few days and will be released from A-level soon. Hopefully, she will success. And This event will be my nostalgia, forever.
These are my birthday wish for this year, and specially for her.
